21.5.14: 100 days with my boy ♥

21 MAY 2014

Note: Dedicating this post to the best of the best boy on Earth.

To my baby boy, I decided to type it here since I have no time to do anything for you for our 100 days. I hoped you don't mind. 

First and foremost, hello readers out there, hello my fans. This post is gonna be a long one and it's gonna be all about my fav boy. *warning yall now* 

It's my 100 days with this tall boy. It's been great since you've become mine. Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense for the past 100 days, and please continue to tolerate it in the future, but don't worry, I'll make sure my nonsense will be lessen. Thanks for always being here for me. Actually, when I said always, I meant most of the time. Because let's be honest here, how can someone really be there for you 24/7? Don't they need to eat? Sleep? Bathe? Go toilet? So if something happened (touch lots of woods) during these timings, how do you expect them to be there for you? Right? Agree? 

YES

Let's just be more understanding towards each other and agree with me okay? (: So ya, back to my point, thanks for always being there for me most of the time. Especially whenever I'm down. (which is like always because of my f**ked up life) Yes, things have changed for the better after you entered my life. Thanks for always encouraging me and complimenting me, it just helps to pull up my self-esteem and boost my confidence. Just... Thanks for everything you've done for me so far.

I'm looking more and more forward to each day. I no longer dread to wake up and face a new day. I can't wait to see my boy everyday. And I hoped the weekends would end faster just to see my boy. (But I also wants my weekends to be longer so there's no school HAHAHA). I get extremely sad when he was sick not long ago, because firstly, HE IS SICK, which is heartbreaking for me to know that he's terribly sick. )': Secondly, I CAN'T SEE HIM, which means I miss him like crazy. ): Thirdly, I SPENT OUR 3RD MONTH AT HOME AND FEELING HEARTBROKEN AND GOT SO WORRIED ABOUT HIM BECAUSE.... 

HE WAS SICK. 

Right. So to my dear, please don't fall sick again ): Even writing this and thinking about it is heartbreaking ): And it makes me miss you more now. 

#overlyattachedgirlfriend

You know that feeling when your boyfriend or your girlfriend touches you and it just sent tingles down your spine? Not sure he feels the same way too whenever I touched him, but yes, I do feel it that way. It's amazing because I've never felt like that before. It's crazy too and every time we finished *warning WARNING WARNING* making out, I felt so breathless and speechless and I just got mind-blown. And you know what, even though I don't show it that much, I really really love hugging him. There were times where I automatically hugged him, and I couldn't stop hugging him. But hey, I'm getting old uh, some parts of my body just had to ache at that moment when it gets too long and so, I had to stop. ): He's just so cuddly and he's like my bear. Hehehe Oh, and do you all know the feeling when both of you had to part and say your goodbyes to each other after the guy sent the girl home? That feeling where you just can't bear to leave and just wants to stay? It's just so sad to leave? YES I have that too. Not sure if he felt that way too, but that's how I felt. Honestly. 

To my cuddly big tall bear, I love you. I love it whenever you gave me that puppy face everytime I said something that makes you sad or go against you or even when I got angry at you and you need my forgiveness. Because I just melt down there and just want to hug and kiss you and eventually, I stopped getting angry. Do you guys know that we laughed when we 'quarreled'? It's weird I know. And we don't stay mad at each other for a day or two or even more. Okay back to my point, I love it whenever you cracked your knuckles every time I talked about some bad guys or I talked to my guy friends. I just love it when you get protective of me. I love it when you pulled me closer to you in the lift, on the bus, or when walking. I love it when you just put your arms around my shoulder or waist if some random male stranger was looking at me. I love it whenever you winked at me during lessons if we just so happened to make eye contact. I love it when you always kiss me whenever you can. I love it when you are not afraid to show me to the world, you don't really care about PDA. I love it when you took note of the little things I do, said, or act. I love it when you copy the way I act, for example... "What what?!" I just love everything about you, from the way you look, every part of you *wink wink*, your clothes smell hehehehe, your actions to me and to how you behave around me. Just everything. 

I truly appreciate it when you opened the door for me, even if I got hands to open, opps. I appreciate it too everytime you send me home, even if it takes super long to get back home. 

Last but not least, thanks for making me feel self-worthy (is there even a word like that? Okay but you get my point) by calling me gem, diamond, beautiful, cute, pretty and sexy (WHUTTTT). I actually love it when you called me blur girl or bimbo. HAHAHA what what?! HEHE Really thanks a lot for making my 2014 anyhow set resolution come true and making it possible. Thanks for giving me lots of experiences (if you get what I mean *wink wink*). I really truly love you, my fav boy, my love, my emo buddy, my best friend, my baby, my dear, my cute boy, tall boy, my lazy pig, my weirdo, my best of the best boy on Earth, my man, and just... My everything. Without you, I would have still struggling to cope with the pain of having my best friend to leave me and my past. I would have been alone to cope with my grief and loss of my grandfather.

Once again, thanks Leon, for everything.

I love you. 'Nuff said.♥ Happy 100 days to us, the weirdest couple. Hehe (:

9.4.14: Day 1/100

Back to blogging.

Apparently, something that I dreaded happened, and in order to recover from it ASAP so as to prevent it from affecting my relationship and my life again, I decided to do the 100 happy days challenge. For the sake of me, my love, and for our relationship. I want us to last long. I want this to continue. I love every seconds I had with him and I don't want it to end that quick. It's time to save this relationship. As much as I said I don't want to change myself, for the sake of our relationship, I have to. I should be more open and should not overthink that easily. Shouldn't get jealous that easily too, and need to constantly remind myself that it's really fine for him to continue disturbing other girls as long as I know he still loves me. I need to be more understanding that he was in  a boys school for 10 years and it's really normal for him to disturb other girls. I need to express myself to him more. I really need to change. 

Apart from the few changes which I mentioned above, the most important thing I need to change is to be more positive. I signed up for the 100 happy days challenge, and started it today. But I already had a hard time thinking of what makes me happy today. Wanted to do something tonight but realised I don't have the time. And that's when an idea came up. 

I got attached recently about 2 months ago. Someone left my life and another came in. Like I said, I love and enjoyed every seconds with him. We took lots of pictures together, and trust me, when I got too bored at home, during cca (OPPS), when I miss him a lot, when I think of him, or even before I go to sleep, I will look at the pictures of us. It reminds me of our love, and it keeps me going. Hence, I decided to change the wallpaper on my lock-screen to this picture:

 YEP trip to Cambodia. Took ox cart ride and saw the sunset with all the YEP trip mates. I'm glad my love was there too, so I got to see the sunset with him too. You can't see our faces, because Eden (the one who helped to take this picture) zoomed in at the sun. It was one of the best pictures with him and I really love this a lot. 

Since I'm a sun person, which means someone who loves the sun more than rain, it kinda explained why I choose this picture. Oh, and to my love, you know what sun means too. (; 

Then I started going back to tumblr cause' there's lots of pretty pictures there. And that's when I saw this picture:

A picture of sunflowers taken during the sunset/sunrise. 

Again, it's SUNflower and SUNset/SUNrise. 

It's always related to SUN.

So yeah, that two pictures make me happy today.

And yes Leon, if I were to receive a sunflower everyday, I can easily succeed my 100 happy days challenge. Hehe, it doesn't have to be real sunflowers you know. (; And even if it's real sunflowers, it doesn't have to be so big. (; HAHAHA yes, that's a hint. But it's okay, that's too much to ask for anyway. :P

29.2.14: A happy post for my people who makes me happy (: ♥

As promised to post about happy things, I decided to give a summary of the dates I had or time spent with my love before and after Valentines Day. So here goes:

Before Valentines Day...

(This is our first date.)

I had my first study date with my love. Exams were coming that time, and I didn't buy LADEL textbook to study. So my love willingly share the textbook with me, and we finally went to Starbucks at Buona Vista. Had been talking about going to Buona Vista to study before we got together, and we finally did! Okay so the Starbucks there is so big, I've never seen Starbucks having 2 levels before. And it felt so high class. HAHAHAHA what talking me. So it's also my first time having a productive study session outside with someone. Keywords: Outside. With someone. I've never been so serious when I studied outside with someone because...

1. I ended up talking all the way, use phone, or stare into the space.

2. I influenced my friends who intend to really study and we ended up talking/gossiping. 

HAHAH so yup, this study date was my first productive one. Well, we did talk, but we talk while studying. HAHAHA Okay, this is also the day where I realised my favorite Starbucks drink, which is White Chocolate Mocha Frappuccino, is no longer available in Singapore! I mean, I know about it long ago, but never had the chance to check it myself. AND THAT DAY, I DID. Well I didn't really went to ask, but my love told me that they said its not available anymore. SAD I AM SO SAD I WANT CRYYYY. D': So I had a hard time thinking of what to drink besides my favorite, and I ended up ordering the same drink as my love, which I can't remember the name. OPPS. Leon, can you tell me the name of the drink as soon as you see this post? Cause that drink became my second favorite. Hehe Alright so after studying 2 topics for LADEL, we decided to call it a day. Went to Star Vista and found a spot to just sit down and talk after buying another drink. :P We had our second pictures together. Hehe :D My love then send me back home, not really home, but to wcplaza since I'm meeting my sister there. So it's my love first meeting with my sister, and I can see how awkward my sister felt. LOL okay so after my love went home, I had my first talk with my sister about my love life. It felt.... EXTREMELY WEIRD. Never talked to her about this cause' we're 5 years apart and she will tell my mother about everything. Telling her is like having no more privacy... Oh well. Yup, so that's my first date, and it turns out to be studying date.

After Valentines Day...

So after Valentines Day, we had another study date, this time, at wcpark. It took me lots of courage to go there with another guy again. That place held lots of memories of my previous r/s. I wanted to rewrite the memories there with my current love and so yeah, we went there. Before the meeting time, I needa throw away all the stuff that reminded me of my ex. Yup, I finally had the courage to do so too. Then, I needa go to the spot in wcpark to fully let go of the memories. To clear my mind. I then went to Mac at wcpark to wait for my love. Well... He was late. But he reached later than expected because he was LOST. HAHAHA Opps it was part of my fault too, because I trust google map too much opps :x Yup, so he ended up cabbing there, when he was so close to wcpark already. HAHA ::x Okay, we started studying and again, it was another productive day, with another 2 topics down. We ended up watching horror show on his laptop. LOL great experience. Then, we went for a walk around wcpark and finally settle at the bench facing the sea. Took our 3rd pictures together and we decided to change our twitter profile pictures from the ones we took on Valentines day to the ones we just took. Cause' got natural lighting (from the sun) and natural winds. AND WE BOTH LOOKED BETTER THERE. HAHAHA Opps :x Walked back to my house and we sort of jam along the way. Heh overall, I had a great time and I managed to really forget all of the memories of my past. (:

Last day of exams, Last day of being a Year 1 student in CPEE.

Had our 4th date on the last day of exams. It was a proper and more official date cause we had the whole day to ourselves. :D So right after exams, we took long bus ride while standing in the bus (NOOO) to town. Wanted to watch horror movie and get the couple seat but the movie was M18, or was it R21? Oh well, but either way, we can't watch. So we ended up watching A Case of You. Bought the couple seats tickets and surprisingly, it's the same price as those normal seats. :O Then, we went to have our first actual lunch together at Pasta Mania. YAY okay, so I finally choose a different pasta. And yumyum hehe

Went to KBox after lunch, and believe me, this is my first time going Kbox with a guy, and ALONE somemore. First time I actually really sing in front of someone. Not afraid of getting judged. We choose our first song, Lucky. Well, it's easy to guess why. Cause' it's a duet and since both of us are shy at first, so why not, sing together first? As a warm up? :D Right, so after Lucky, we start choosing our own songs. The sequence is from one song for each first, then start to increase to three, and finally five. HAHAH. And things get more and more interesting... (; Not gonna say the details here. But just gonna say that IT'S MY FIRST TIME A GUY CARRIED ME HAHAHAHA. Okay end of my interesting story in the KBox room.

So after 3 hours of jamming, we went for our movie. AND GOSH, THE COUPLE SEATS ARE SO SO COOL HAHAHA And I was expecting lesbians or gays or even just same gender friends going for couple seats and it did happened! Two girls came in after the movie started for a while. AND I THOUGHT THEY WERE A COUPLE CAUSE DURING THE KISS SCENE, one of the girls actually went closer to the other, AND I THOUGHT THEY WERE GONNA KISS HAHAHAHA OPPS. Okay enough of the two girls, let's just focus on my date. My love fell asleep halfway throughout the movie, oh well cant blame him, since he's tired. BUT HE SNORED. HAHAHA opps sorry Leon, I just exposed you. OPPPPPSSSS HAHAHA So common sense tells you that you should just wake someone up if he/she snores in the cinema right? So I did. :P Right, the movie was okay? It was funny but still, okay, nothing beats horror movie still. Heh

So after the movie, we decided to just skip dinner. Since I'm still quite full from the pasta heh. So we walked down the town, and turned around to walk back. LOL cause nothing much to do. And then we decided to just go to Starbucks and buy something and talk. AGAIN ahhaha Alright, so we shared a cookies 'n' creme cheesecake, and actually, tbh here, I still don't get what's the difference between cookies 'n' creme and oreo. LOL Aren't they the same? :P Oh well. Both taste nice still. Oh, I also got the chance to know my love more. Funny how we're classmates for a year, got together in the end but still dk his likes and dislikes. Opps. My bad. :P After finishing the cheesecake, we decided to go home.

Took the ling bus ride home again, and had a sort of heart to heart talk session. Right, I opened up to him. About almost everything. And I controlled myself not to breakdown in front of him, or rather, not to breakdown after a happy day with him. It's a turn off, you know. :P So this time, he sent me back to my doorsteps. Hehe (:

We had our 4th pictures together. :D

Overall, that was a memorable day for me. Well actually everyday with him is memorable. Hehe Love you dear (: ♥

Skype, 24 Feb 2014

Had my second skype session with someone and it was with my love. :D It lasted for 6 hours 12 mins and 41 secs. WOW. Okay so not gonna say what we talked about, but it was really interesting and.... WILD. 

25 Feb 2014

Went over to a guy's house after the incident, and it was my love's house. (: We decided to watch running man and emergency couple together. But before that, we went to Nex supermarket to buy some things first. Talked about awkward when we were buying pls. HAHAHA Right so went to his house, had a crazy, great and interesting few hours together, then he cooked for me. And then we watched running man, and then emergency couple, and another crazy time, yeah really crazy. Then continue watching emergency couple until he fell asleep. LOL so he slept until I heard someone came back. LOL SHOCK OF MY LIFE HAHAHA Okay, so his sister came back. And I was going to prepare for another awkward session. But before that, I had to wake my love up first. Shook him twice but no respond. So I decided to just slapped him LIGHTLY on his face instead. OPPS HAHAHA And yeah, the method worked. ::D So he went to wash the dishes, and decided to go out and have our dinner.

Had dinner at MOF (if i'm not wrong) at Nex and I had my 9 sushis. HEHEHE Then went to the skypark/sky garden and went to an ulu spot. Well, not really ulu since the library is just beside that spot and people can actually see us from inside. :P But oh well.. And we decided to... TALK AGAIN LOL. 

Right, the best part was when he sent me back home. Took long bus ride again, and we decided to play some games. IT WAS SOOO ENTERTAINING AND FUN and we couldn't stop laughing. HAHAH That day, I realised I really do suck at hands-games. LOL

Had our 5th pictures together and I can't wait to have more. 

26 Feb 2014

Wasn't feeling quite well that day and my love decided to come over to 'take care' of me. He bought food over, and then, had another crazy few hours together. That's how he took care of me people. :P LOL But well, can't say much about what happened that day, so I'm just gonna conclude, I had a fun halfday with him though I wasn't feeling well. It was really crazy.

Today

Alright, so in just about 9, 10 or 11 hours, I'm gonna meet my love again for the third time this week. But if you count in the skype, then it should be fourth time this week. He's coming over my house early in the morning and we're gonna talk AGAIN heh, just got random things to talk about but I know the talk is gonna get lesser and lesser and....nothing. :P And yeah, after that, gonna spend my other halfday with my love at wcpark and fly kite hehehe. Gonna be my second time trying to fly a kite, first time was a disaster. The strings got tangled before the kite even fly, or to be specific, the strings got tangled before I even had the chance to touch the kite. LOL Get what I mean? Because I don't. My mind isn't working too well today and I'm sleepy and tired. But as promised, I have to post this by today. (: Right, it's gonna be a night out at the park with my love tomorrow. Wait, I mean later. Flying kite at night sounds interesting enough for me. It's also gonna be us starting afresh after the last 3 wild and crazy days. Yup, gonna get through this together, our first obstacle. I must not give up. (':

Yup, so here's the happy post I owe my love, and maybe to my other fans of my blog? (: As you can see, I'm feeling blessed and really glad to have Leon as my boyfriend. I'm attached at 18 after my previous disaster relationship, and went single for almost 3 years and my love is finally attached after 18 years. (Let's just count by the year we born alright, Leon. HAHAHA :P) I'm very glad to be his first. And yeah, I want this to last. I want to be his last and I know he don't mind not being my first as long as he can be my last too. (: Thanks Leon, and love you dear. (: ♥

16.2.14: Genuinely Happy

Hello!

  It's been a while since I blogged, and now that I'm here, I decided to update about what I did on Valentines' Day. (:

  14 February 2014 (at 1am in the morning)

  I decided to sleep early that night because I was feeling so sleepy, I don't even know why. The moment I crawled to bed and lay down there, I was knocked out.

After an hour plus, I woke up because of some nightmare, and I couldn't get back to sleep. So I spent another hour just lying down there thinking of what to do the next day with my love, and hoping that I would drift off to sleep soon. But I couldn't, and that's when my love texted me. Yup, so I spent the next two hours chatting with my love, and again, hoping that I would fall asleep. At 4am plus, I told my love that I would try to get some sleep, and he should too. So we stopped chatting and well, again, I couldn't sleep. That's when an idea popped up. 

You see, I spent my entire Valentines' Day Eve, thinking about what to give for my love. I felt really guilty because I haven't do anything for him and even went to google on "What to give for guys on Valentines' Day". But oh well, it was a fruitless effort anyway, cause' the results were all about using money to buy gifts, which is kinda insincere? Well, that's my opinion though. 

So yeah, an idea popped up at 4am in the morning. It was actually Hearts in a Jar. But then again, I don't have time to do that and mehh, I did that before and realised that I don't have that patience to do so. 

I lay down there continue to think of what to do, and ta-da! Another idea popped up - Baking cookies! I figured out that it was a great idea considering the fact that I only had lesson the next day at 2pm and I'm meeting my friend at 12pm. So I just need to wake up super early to bake. But then again, it was a challenge for me since I've never bake cookies alone before. I only baked it in school during F&N and the recipe was given by my F&N teacher. So it meant that I have to start searching for easy and quick recipe and pray that I'll be able to make the dough successfully. 

At 5am in the morning, I managed to find a cookie recipe that doesn't require any eggs. (Because I got no eggs at home :P) It was really easy and quick, but the problem is, I'm afraid that the dough will come out as crumbles or too sticky. Oh well, I still have to try right? So yep, I went to take medicine and went to sleep (Like a finally).

14 February 2014 (Day)

Woke up at 8am in the morning and I couldn't wait to see my love. Hehe 

I went to start working on my baking and to my surprise, the dough came out really well. It was just nice. I even went to find recipes on how to make the icing sugar and realised that it was super easy. All you need to do, is to mix the powder icing sugar and a lil' bit of milk and oh, food colouring of course, unless you want it to be white, and ta-da~ the thick icing sugar is formed! It hardens real fast too! But oh well, despite getting two easy recipes, I'm still late for both the meeting with my friend and lesson. Mehh. 

I rushed out of my house and went to meet Eunice first. Well cause I knew I'm gonna late, so I asked her to help me buy contact lens first and I'll just meet her and we exchange. HAHAH Okay so I met her, and she said my cookies were delicious. OF COURSE IT WAS HAHAHAAH okay I'm just kidding. I was okay for me. hehe

Next, I rushed to school to meet Xiao Tian, we were supposed to meet at 12pm and have lunch together but I was super super late and ended up meeting her at 1:30pm and not eating together of course... I passed her the cookies I made, and she gave me a pink rose! Hehehe 

Okay so I met Eden and we went to class together. It was supposed to be 2pm lesson, but my lecturer decided to change the lesson time to 1:30pm. Tsk. I'm super super late, well not only me, Eden too. 

By the time we reached the class, my love's group already started presenting. and was going to end too. HAHAH opps. Oh well.

Lesson ended at 2:30pm plus plus. It was great of course, but not on this day. It's the last day of school, and my group already presented last week so this week we are free, and I rushed to school because of this and we ended after an hour plus. I just wasted my time by rushing to school. Tsk. Oh well, we took our sort of ootd picture outside class and he gave me a pink rose :D That's right, 2 pink roses of the day. hehe

Okay enough of school stuff. 

Me and my love went to catch a movie after lesson, we went to watched "Endless Love" mainly because the horror movie we wanted to watch is R21 and well, there weren't any movies left so yup. 

*Gonna leave out the details on what happened during the movie hehe*

So after the movie, we went Sushi Tei, and trust me, that was my first time queuing outside some restaurant and waiting to get seated. HAHAHA cause I'm forever lazy. Mehh. 

Right after dinner, we decided to have dessert and went to Sogurt. It was our first time eating Sogurt. hahaha and well, we took our twitter profile pictures there. hehe :P

Went to the open spaced rooftop (?) to talk. He gave me another gift and I gave him the cookie. Hehe the gift he gave me was really sweet and full of sincerity. (:

He sent me back home, and we waited for bus 143 for more than 30 mins. Tsk, wth is wrong with the bus but oh well, I get to spend more time with my love, hehe. 

On the bus, there was a lady sitting in front of us. We can't do anything cause' she was staring at us wherever we talked. Mehh it was awkward and funny. 

So yeah, went back home and I couldn't stop smiling to myself. Hehe

Overall...

Well overall, yeah, how I spent my Valentines day doesn't sound anything special to others, but to me, it was. Though we only got together for 3 days when we celebrated Valentines day, it was still special to me. I was well spent, and I wouldn't forget this day. It wasn't an awkward date. There weren't any awkward silences and we had lots to talk about. Yes I had endless topics with my used-to-be best friend too, but that was only on whatsapp. We actually didn't talk much when we went out. It was awkward, really. Just that I don't want to admit it. My love is a super nice guy, he may looked blur but he's not what he looked. I was actually quite shocked at how sweet and loving he was when we got together. Actually, some of my classmates were shocked at how he's a different person after he got attached too. I didn't expect him to be so sweet but I guess I was wrong. I'm near to getting diabetes soon. Hahaha

So I had a proper date on Valentines Day after 18 years of my life, and I'm genuinely happy now. 

Thanks, Leon. (: