Back to blogging.
Apparently, something that I dreaded happened, and in order to recover from it ASAP so as to prevent it from affecting my relationship and my life again, I decided to do the 100 happy days challenge. For the sake of me, my love, and for our relationship. I want us to last long. I want this to continue. I love every seconds I had with him and I don't want it to end that quick. It's time to save this relationship. As much as I said I don't want to change myself, for the sake of our relationship, I have to. I should be more open and should not overthink that easily. Shouldn't get jealous that easily too, and need to constantly remind myself that it's really fine for him to continue disturbing other girls as long as I know he still loves me. I need to be more understanding that he was in a boys school for 10 years and it's really normal for him to disturb other girls. I need to express myself to him more. I really need to change.
Apart from the few changes which I mentioned above, the most important thing I need to change is to be more positive. I signed up for the 100 happy days challenge, and started it today. But I already had a hard time thinking of what makes me happy today. Wanted to do something tonight but realised I don't have the time. And that's when an idea came up.
I got attached recently about 2 months ago. Someone left my life and another came in. Like I said, I love and enjoyed every seconds with him. We took lots of pictures together, and trust me, when I got too bored at home, during cca (OPPS), when I miss him a lot, when I think of him, or even before I go to sleep, I will look at the pictures of us. It reminds me of our love, and it keeps me going. Hence, I decided to change the wallpaper on my lock-screen to this picture:
YEP trip to Cambodia. Took ox cart ride and saw the sunset with all the YEP trip mates. I'm glad my love was there too, so I got to see the sunset with him too. You can't see our faces, because Eden (the one who helped to take this picture) zoomed in at the sun. It was one of the best pictures with him and I really love this a lot.
Since I'm a sun person, which means someone who loves the sun more than rain, it kinda explained why I choose this picture. Oh, and to my love, you know what sun means too. (;
Then I started going back to tumblr cause' there's lots of pretty pictures there. And that's when I saw this picture:
A picture of sunflowers taken during the sunset/sunrise.
Again, it's SUNflower and SUNset/SUNrise.
It's always related to SUN.
So yeah, that two pictures make me happy today.
And yes Leon, if I were to receive a sunflower everyday, I can easily succeed my 100 happy days challenge. Hehe, it doesn't have to be real sunflowers you know. (; And even if it's real sunflowers, it doesn't have to be so big. (; HAHAHA yes, that's a hint. But it's okay, that's too much to ask for anyway. :P
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